I wish...
I wish for so many things
That never seem
To come true
I wish you could have understood
That it isn't easy to quit
When it's the only thing
That was keeping you breathing
I wish I could have cried
When I was at the funeral
Maybe for once in my life
I'd feel human
I wish I had spilled
My guts at therapy
So maybe I'd feel better
Or maybe they'd pump drugs into me
Either way, I'd find myself on lith
I wish I could hold my love close
And not know that he lives thousands of miles away
They may say online isn't real
But when they accept your dark side
You can't help but love
I wish I had known what it was
To not have to sacrifice
Everything I have
For one moment of happiness
I wish I could feel
Emotions I've never felt
Experience them wash over me
And replace the pain
I wish I had taken the time
To love the life I had
And enjoy the health I had
Before I got myself into this pain
I wish I had loved a little more
And kept my friends closer
Knowing that sooner or later
I'd be alone and forgotten
I wish I'd known
That he'd break my heart
Knowing that from the start
Might have saved me from falling apart
And I'd wish I'd have some time
To take matters into my own hands
And fix the problems other's have caused
So I wouldn't be so forgotten.